The Lights Never Went Out

Went to Pisay for Sono alone, even with a sore throat, collapsing chest, and sunburn. When I got there Freaky Fair Day hadn't ended yet, but not too many people were there - probably just hanging around for the concert. The jailers were parading people around the oval with black flags. Then biglang Ate Egg ordered some '07 sections to "Fire!" It was like I had just walked into a war - water balloons were flying and water guns were pumping people into a wet oblivion. I made myself unnoticed in a small food stall and didn't get the least bit wet. Biglang nagsiputukan yung supposed fireworks display. It was cute, but I don't think what '07 paid for it was worth it. Then nagpalabas na sila for Sonoluminescence.

Lumabas ako, trying to see if there was any friendly face who was going. Noong una, hindi eh. Then I saw Quintin (hug) and PattiCor. Yay! May nakasama na rin ako. They were waiting to get in then. But before we went in I saw a dinner setting sa may first floor ng SHB. Yeah. Sa loob. Sabi ni Quintin it's because of Elimidate and the Fair Pair. Apparently doon mangyayari yung mga date.

Then more people came, like Trish and Kevin and Jio and Mike and Frances... basta, medyo marami. Then si Jio and Trish pala were one of the couples. Poor Kevin. So we waited a bit... Tapos si Frances Peralta was there... Apparently papatayin na niya si Jio for the Assassination thing. So we plotted and plotted and plotted... Jio ended up dead. Di namin pinansin. Kawawa naman siya. :(

So we were going in, tapos biglang sabi ni Patti: "OMG... Quintin, nawawala wallet kooo..." They were gonna buy fud kasi. Yeah, fud. So we searched a bit, pero di namin talaga mahanap. So we just told Patti that we'd help pay na lang. And I ended up getting dinner with them. Yum.

Kumain kami while listening to Paramita... they were gooood... Nagkuwento pa si Patti about their songs and stuff... Ang nakakaawliw talaga sa kanila was the fact na yung drummer nila yung vocalist nila - na babae. Cool. Doon lang ako nakakita ng ganun. Then followed Up Dharma Down, Giniling Festival (dodo! xD), Radioactive Sago... actually, yun lang yung mga bands na napakinggan ko... We went out kasi after that... and di na 'ko nakapasok uli... I wasn't able to hear Urbandub (I'll get Embrace soon) or the BOTB champ... (I don't even know their name) pero the concert was okay. Not good or anything, just okay. The lights never really went out, literally and figuratively; in fact I was illuminated to a whole lot more.

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I don't know if I should be telling everyone any of this. I mean, I don't really know what'll happen to me if I do tell, or if I don't. Unavoidably, there will be consequences if I do tell the world about how I feel and what I feel, but I've long taken that risk. I've suffered whatever consequences my blog has brought about. So why shouldn't I do it now? Maybe because it hurts. It hurts so badly. Even if I'm not sure at all, it hurts to think that the possibility may be a truth. I can't bear to think how differently people might treat me because of this...

What do you think? I already told you. Didn't catch it? Go back to where the post came from. You'll understand. And once you do, I hope you're one of the few who will not go away; who will not judge me or change their perspective of me for the worse. I'm sorry.

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I control you.
I alter your view - what you see.

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10 comments

It felt so good to read that.

KSP

I'm so damn sick and tired of maintaining a blog that no one actually reads. I'm so damn sick and tired of people not knowing I'm still here. I'm so fed up with checking my dashboard for comments, only to find none. Well, fine. I'm such in a fucked-up mood to day that I've decided something. My ego is getting out of hand, and here it rears its ugly head. If this post does not get 10 decent unique Blogger comments within 7 days of me posting this, I am taking Inkblotter down. That means no anonymous comments, no spam - and you must convince me in your comment to keep this blog up. Parang wala na kasing nagbabasa eh. What's the point of me sitting down at a computer and writing about my life kung wala rin namang nangyayari??

BTW, I'm on Blogger Beta. Kung hindi kayo makapag-comment, it's because hindi kayo naka-Beta. Or baka wala talaga kayong Blogger account. Too bad.

Poem Post 6: Iwas Lingon Iwas (crossposted)

Sa sandaling lumipas na ika'y dumaan
Tapang at malay ako'y nawalan
Ng iyong tingin ako'y tinagusan
Sa salita't galaw ako'y nahirapan

Hindi kita mahal, alam ko iyon
Ngunit 'di maiwasang sa iyo lumingon
'Di na kailangan pang itanong
Para sa 'yo'y sa dagat tatalon

Bigay mo lang ay saya't sakit
Sa tuwing ika'y sa 'kin lalapit
Pag tumitingin ako'y sumasabit
Hindi ko matago ang aking pagkaakit

Tuwing hinahanap at siyang sinusundan
'Di gumagana palpak kong isipan
Nagkataong nagkita, tayo'y nag-iwasan
'Di nagpansinan, kapwa tinalikuran