Poem Post 3: Never Was

Dedicated to how people treat me - like nothing.

You thought that I was the I that you thought

But you thought wrong.

You thought I was always at your side

Not for long.

I never began ~ so I cannot end

I never was there ~ less so as a friend

I never saw the light ~ because I was never seen

I never understood ~ what anything did mean

You thought I was there for you

No.

I couldn't, can't, will never see

I couldn't, can't, will never be

For how can one be

Part of "us"

If one was never

Never was

Felt

Decision
J-REV rocked. It was a Praisefest of sorts, but more like a rally. It was great - I don't regret not going to RD's party (where I'd feel OP), or to Takipsilim (where I knew nobody), or staying at home (where I'd go into withdrawal). The Jesus Revolution was a movement for the advancement of youth...ment. (^_^;) With me were a whole heck of people I never thought could rock and scream and shout and cheer and cry like that...I loved it. I really did.

Jealousy
I felt jealous because I saw <> with <> at <>...It hurt somehow, but I felt happy that <> got what <> had wanted all along...to be with <>...It hurts, you know, when the thing you want the most can't seem to see you wanting it...

Anger and Healing
Opal is going to have an open forum this Tuesday...we're going to blow everything out and show what people really feel about one another. Everyone is going to have their hands tied behind their back, to represent the pain and hurt that holds us back. Once a person has gotten over all his/her issues, he/she is freed.